Today we have reached the milestone of 33 months. Someone (Mom? Maybe not.) taught me once, and I'll try to obey just this one time, that if you don't have something nice to say, don't say anything at all.
So today, all I'm going to say is that we've reached 33 months.
Wednesday is my ninth wedding anniversary, and I have some very nice things to say about that, so until Wednesday...
Hang in there, Jen. Love you!!!
ReplyDeleteYou know the acryomn for Hang in there is "HIT" Yeah, that is what I wanted to do was hit something everytime my case worker said that to me when we were in the Nepal program that ultimately failed and we never adopted from there. I don't know you at all Wendy and I don't mean to sound mean, but I would never use those words around Jen again.
ReplyDeleteThere are no words, Jen. My heart grieves for you. I know that I had to make a conscious choice everyday to tell myself that God is good and that He can be trusted before God allowed my heart to truly believe it and feel it in my heart again. It was a horrible pit of dark that I went into when I started believing the lies that Satan told me. Don't drop that shield(Holy Spirit) in your mind that filters out those lies. I did and let me tell you I was miserable. God made sure that I would never want to go back to that place again. God was so silent. It was deafening. I am ashamed to say how low I fell. God was so good. He allowed me to see my sin and in tears repent and then lovingly bring my heart back to him. Why does adoption have to be so hard?! I am so, so sorry.
Knowing how you feel and wishing I could do something to get both of our files moving. :(
ReplyDeleteKerrie from Australia....
I can tell you that before we got the referral for Rafael I honestly thought it would never happen for us. Lots of families who had waited less time than us had gotten referrals and I wondered why in the world ICAB weren't matching us. What was wrong with us anyways!! Well FINALLY they did match us with our super duper little boy and there is no other child we would want to call our son. When others said this, I never really believed it, but it's true. You will be matched with the child who is just perfect for you. It just totally sucks that you have to wait so long to see his/her precious face. I'm still praying everyday that your call is coming soon!!! Take care and I'll look forward to reading your Wednesday post.
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